Tonight a dear friend of mine is letting me raid her closet for some maternity clothes, and I'm going shopping tomorrow with another friend who is also pregnant, just a few days behind me. Only this will be her 4th, so I'm hoping to glean a bit of wisdom while we shop! I'm so thankful for the women in my life who have walked this road before me, reminding me of the incredible gift at the end. And for letting me borrow their pants when I outgrow mine!
Friday, March 27, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
By all accounts, I am told that the 2nd trimester is the most enjoyable of the 3. I hear you move past the nausea, get some energy back, and actually start to look the part of a pregnant girl - all things I am very ready for! Last week I really thought I was beginning to turn a corner with the whole nausea thing. My "good times" seemed to be getting longer, leaving me with a bit more energy, and even some of my old appetite. I was thankful for the change as Dan's sister was in town and I was able to cook a couple of meals - something I hadn't really been able to tackle since sometime in January! I even cooked up some meat and veggies, two items which have made the kitchen my nemesis thanks to my super-sonic sense of smell and hyper-active gag reflex. I didn't actually eat them in the end, but I felt like it was progress nevertheless.
Then Sunday didn't go quite as well. Then Monday was worse and I wasn't sure I'd make it through the work day (I did). Then yesterday was more of the same and by the time I got home I was a nauseous, whiny, pathetic mess. Dan was so excited to have an evening just to ourselves, and instead of relaxing and enjoying our time, I pretty much succumbed to throwing myself a nice little pity party. I'm not so sure he enjoyed it.
I'm not sure why, but it seems like my reprieve of last week has only served to dampen my spirits during this week's sudden reversal. As I step back and think about it, I realize that I should be grateful for the break I was given for a few days, particularly while Amanda was here to hang out. The Lord allowed me the strength and energy to enjoy the time with her, and I am thankful for that. And yet instead of focusing on the good, I tend to dwell on what's dragging me down - which as we all know, only drags you down farther.
I know this seems like a rather depressing blog entry, but I guess I'm just trying to sort out some of my thoughts this afternoon. The excitement and anticipation for this little one I carry builds each day - and I know this will all be totally and completely worth it in the end. In fact, my guess is I'll probably do this again some day (Lord willing). So right now I know I just need to "suck it up" and press on. I just wish I knew if I was going to feel like this for another 6 months or 6 weeks or 6 days. But maybe that wouldn't help, anyway. Maybe today I'll just ask God for the grace to get through today and let tomorrow worry about itself.
I'm reminded of one of my favorite quotes as I write this - one I should probably wall paper my office with. I'll leave you with this:
"What may be your portion tomorrow is not your business today. Today's business is trust in the living God who precisely measures out, day by day, each one's portion." - Elisabeth Elliot
I think I'm feeling a little better already...
Friday, March 20, 2009
His can disappear at will. In reality, that thing is rock-solid!
*Note: I was only allowed to post the first two pictures as long as I also agreed to include the last one. He didn't want anyone to get the wrong impression of his manly figure ;-)
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I look back today on that day and the 3 years that have passed since that time, and I am blown away at God's faithfulness in our lives. These have truly been the best 3 years of my life.
Thank you, Dan, for loving me inspite of myself and for your committment to God, me, and our family (soon to come!) "til death do us part." I'll love you always.
Monday, March 16, 2009
There's just something awkward about this. But I have enjoyed watching some of my friend's pregnant belly's grow through pictures, so I figured why not :-)
We also had a doctor's appointment on Friday and got a good report. We got to hear the heartbeat, which totally blew me away! It really seemed like I was just in the room listening to the doctor talk to someone else about all of this...it just doesn't seem possible that it's actually happening to me! But there was definitely a heartbeat, and it definitely came from my womb - which was a pretty incredible realization.
When does this all actually sink in? Please tell me it happens sometime before the baby actually comes home with me. I'm guessing there are a few things I need to do before then.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Moral of the story - cigarette smoke is gross. It ruins beautiful spring days.
Monday, March 9, 2009
And so it begins...the many wondrous and wacky experiences of pregnancy. The past couple of months have been filled with queasiness for me, although I am thankful that I am not nearly as sick as I could be. The sight and smell of food tends to be the usual culprit - especially when it's actually cooking. Dan has been so great to fend for himself most meals, although I'm always willing to share whatever oh-so-bland pasta or bread I happen to be munching on. Any tips on semi-healthy foods that might taste good right now? The mac & cheese and ramen noodles are starting to get a little old.
I've also experienced the usual fatigue of the first trimester. Who knew that something so tiny would require so much energy?! This is a bit embarrassing, but yesterday I took a bit of a marathon nap...for 4 hours!! Now, before you go getting too judgemental, I had a little help. My doctor recommended that I take 1/2 of a Unisom tablet (a sleep aid) for my nausea, which I was told shouldn't make me too drowsy. I'm glad I didn't try that at work! Perhaps it helps quell nausea because it renders you totally unconscious.
Just in the past week, my pants have started feeling a bit tighter. I didn't think I had really grown any noticeable amount, but day by day my pants have become more and more uncomfortable, particularly at work. I mean, that button is going to have to go soon! I'm just not quite ready to purchase maternity clothes yet, but in an effort to make my work wardrobe last a bit longer, I made this purchase at Target this weekend:
I think it's called a BellaBand. Has anyone ever heard of this? Does it actually work? It seems like it just might be the ticket to hold up some button-less pants for the next little while.
In other news, spring has definitely sprung here in middle Tennessee! Blossoms are exploding like crazy, along with the daffodils and fresh green grass that is poking it's way up through last year's left-overs. I love spring! Pictures soon to follow.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
And then I peed on another stick. And the same thing happened.
And then I started getting queasy and started hating foods & smells I had once dearly loved - like coffee.
And then I went to the doctor, and they showed me this:
Apparently I've aquired some sort of a parasite! But good news - they say it will pass in about 6 1/2 months.
In all seriousness, Dan & I are absolutely THRILLED! What a beautiful and miraculous gift pregnancy is, all nausea & exhaustion aside :-) I am 11 weeks along today and have been given a due date of September 23. I'm anxious to get through this first trimester, but thankfully I'm just a couple of weeks away now.
I thought it was time to come out with my little secret here on this blog of mine. Perhaps you'll be hearing from me a little more frequently now that I have something important to talk about! I certainly seem to have a lot more crazy thoughts rolling around my head these days :-)
Sunday, March 1, 2009
I really had a wonderful trip, got to spend lots of good time with Mom, heard some "stories from the field" as Dad told some tales from the Academy (which is going pretty well, by the way), hung out with Paige & Torri, and got to visit quite a bit with Grandma & Grandpa. Perhaps if I ever get a bit more motivated to keep up with this blog, I'll tell you more about it :)
I got home Monday night, went to work Tuesday morning, and came home sick Tuesday afternoon. I'm not exactly sure what it was that hit me, but I had a fever by the time I got home, and that seemed to hang around until Friday, keeping me holed up here the rest of the week. I've been fighting an awful cough in my chest and a horribly stuffy nose ever since. Today was the first day I woke up and actually thought, "Ahhh....I think I'm feeling a little better today!"
Like I said...what a LONG week this has been. I've been doing this most of the time, sipping my fluids and resting. If nothing else, it's given me a good opportunity to do some fun reading!